missed spin again today, did go on Tues, maybe SP is just jealous that is why she is putting up all these road blocks, I just wish my belly would stop hurting, it has been 3 days, I don't know what I ate this time, but I am feeling really really really miserable right now. Told DR I wasn't sure if I really wanted this job, she said she wanted me to stay, she gives me strength, she always makes me feel better when I feel I have nothing left, I am worried about my 840 score, I think I flunked it. my head hurts, my belly hurts, uhg
